Gah I haven't written in this forever. I guess my journal IRL is doing all of the work.

So.
I'm under "house arrest.
AKA grounded.
I can use the internet, but I can't go outside unless I'm a) going to school (and even then mum drives me), or b) returning home from school. Today I was allowed to go to the mall, but I had to come home earlier - around 7 pm. I missed my bus, so I had to wait half an hour. It was annoying. Every single fucking time the bus came, it was a s79. I was about to walk home - and trust me, it would have taken a while. A girl I met was in a similar situation. Except a social worker kept her in for two or three minutes when she was going to catch the bus... to tell her not to throw a pizza at someone's face.
Wtf world?

May be taken off house arrest tomorrow. Depends on how well the "persuasive argument" goes. Which is really just going into the next room and thinking of what to say, but whatever.

I know this might not be the right time for me since I should be plotting for NaNoWriMo
but fuuuuuuuck I should write this down
it'll help me organise my thoughts and focus when NaNo comes.

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Love is over-rated. That's what I used to say - and I still do think that is the case, actually. Not that I thought it was useless, I just thought people were exaggerating or bullshitting. I've never been in love, so I can't say for sure whether it's true. All I know is, whatever THIS is, isn't love either. Or, if it is, it's "puppy love".
Puppy love sounds like the best way to describe it.

So, I'll get to the main problem: I like this boy. (Yes, a boy. Steph LOL'd, which might have brought up me making out with Lovable Ninja-Girl at NYAF. XD;) He's not the fucking idiotic popular boy or the "loser" loner boy, nor is he a geek - okay, he is, but that isn't the point. He's just him. He's awesome, cool, funny, fucking adorable and all-around a good person to be around when you feel like shit. He's in my Biology class, which IS pretty awesome in itself, ESPECIALLY since Sciences is my worst subject AND a subject I've always fucking hated. He was with me and Angela (a loveable fluffbuddy) in Math A and B last year.

I've thought about asking him out. He's not an asshole - at least, I think he isn't - so the worst thing that could happen is that he ends up saying "No." No, no, no, nononono. No. And the best thing that happens is that he says "yes" and we date for a bit, then probably break up.

But one thing - I have no idea how the fuck to do this, IF I even do this. Being shy is one thing, but I've never ASKED out anyone, I've only BEEN asked out, by both guys AND girls. I don't believe in "THE RULES" bullshit my mum always talked about; it says that you have to basically wait for a guy to like you, and that's good and all if it works. I am not willing to sacrifice my identity - as in, making myself more feminine (LAWLS wtf) so Ye Right Olde Sir or Madame might hopefully just maybe possibly one day notice me.
If I base something on "what could have been", I might as well not be living at all.

Of course, I could just not ask him out and hope my crush on him fades soon, like I usually do with most of my other friends. To me, flirting with my friends is not unusual - I try not to go overboard, and as far as I know I haven't done that yet. But it's wierd - I never felt this strongly, the feeling I should at least THINK about acting on it.
I don't know if it's good or bad.



So yeah.
That's basically my rant of the year.

But I do have some GOOD news - this weekend is going to be totally awesome, with my friend's party on Saturday and Six Flags on Sunday. And on Thursday my hair's going to be straightened. (Which I'm not exactly looking forward to, but hey, WHAT'S A LITTLE PAIN? XD;)

Oh my God

I
am
alive.

Went to find a store in Times Square, gave up because I'm shitty with directions unless they're specific (and my "instincts" are as good as Sokka's), went to Chinatown only to get depressed. For no reason. Yeah. And I suddenly didn't want to be there any more. Sooooooo I went back home.

LOL HOW EXCITING.
not.
>.>

oh and btw I'm procrastinating from an English essay. I can just do it tomorrow, seeing as I don't have any other HW I need to do. Yay.

hahahahahaha

today was epic.

first I tried to find the Elizabeth Centre, and then I saw a sign that said "Chinatown Arcade" and I was like "HAY THAR" BUT THERE WAS NO ARCADE THOSE LYING LYING WHORES. DDD8 The guy rec'd me to the police station across the street cuz they woud know, but I was like "I AIN'T GOIN' TO NO PO-PO, HO" in my head and so I texted Anthony.

The arcade was in the next street.
it was cool.
I met yet ANOTHER guy, he's a mix of EVERYTHING. (or everything Spanish. IDK. He's also part Egyptian) HE'S A MUTT LOL. And he thought I was 12.
I thought he was college-age.
but he's like, 16 going on 17.

on my way home I dropped off a shirt I bought for Steph.
IZZIE I PROMISE YOU I WILL GET YOU SOMETHING COOL. :3
<33

...

I am not, not, NOT touching that with a ten foot pole.
Fuck even though I don't know him I sort of hope he DOESN'T do it. DX

I hope this shit doesn't last.
And I may seem like a heartless bitch for saying this but IDK, I support getting him help and stuff but if (after that) he truly wants to do it in his heart and thinks life won't improve I say maybe we should let him?

...yeah, I'm REALLY helping.
i feel like more of an asshole by saying that, and not in a good way.

</srs>

going to chinatown, bbl.

okay Monday or Tuesday I will tell you ALL about the New York anime festival all you need know is today was awesome and yeah this is all the shit I forgot to say yesterday.
***

I got my phone taken away.
And my hat.
Luckily they returned my hat. c: But my principal said if I wore it again she'd take it and keep it. wtf it's just a beret, lady, not a mask that the guy with the chainsaw in RE4 wears.

with my PHONE, however, I can't get it back till Thursday. 3-5pm. Yes, retarded, isn't it? Not returning it until the end of the day is one thing, but... what are the evils of cell phones accidentily ringing in class? I understand if you're fucking TEXTING in class but ffffff and with the random scans by the metal detectors it's like a fucking prison.
I'm sure other schools are more reasonable and less lame out of state and out of country.
we just seem to love to restrict shit.
Lawls I'm writing a letter to the chancellor IN MY JOURNAL to vent, I won't sent it. ;D
Unles I decide to, then I want help from Lar to edit.

Stomach cramps. Period, just no. God no.
I had to go home because they were just that bad. Yes. It started at Bio. At least I got through half the classes that day. And I did my Bio test.
(Note: I'm not calling Bio "Living Environment", it's the same thing. Bio is Bio, period, fuck NY state chancellor.)

I'm gonna look into getting the hormonal BC pill that gets your period into a more "seasonal" (once every three months, only four times a year) schedule, but I'm also going to look into the side effects. Crippling stomach pain every month = do not want.

IN OTHER NEWS, Gaia will have their panel at the NYAF on the 27th. Since this is animecon weekend I AM SO GOING TO SEE THEM YES GOD YES. <3333333

~SUGAR QUEEN JAZZY.

Gah. Another girl crush. She's a friend, not like "BFF" friend but eh. She's the type I wouldn't go out with, but she's fun to hang around.
DX
Me and my fucking crushes.

I should find my fucking two-subject notebook. @.@ It's been missing for quite a bit.
Imagine if I found it in my backpack. Lololol lame.

AND, I'm going to the NY Anime Festival on the 27/28th, SUCK IT BITCHES. 8D (JKJK ILU. But you're still my hos)

Wonderful.

The storm did come in, it was raining hard. Me and Steph tried to find her friend, but unfortunately her mum dropped her off two hours late so we couldn't find her (and we couldn't call her cell, it was broken). SO we ran off to Chinatown, only to realise there was no point in staying there since it was raining hard and shit, so we went back home.

There's one guy who perved on me. He's 23, knows I'm 15, and doesn't care. .-. AND lives next door to my friend's work (and my friend lives in a part of the house). Two other guys thought I was cute/pretty/whatever, but when one of the guys asked my age he seemed to back. away. slowly.

Jeebus. Why do I bring out the paedo/older guys?

K so here's my schedule, for all interested parties (which would most likely be nobody). Not counting Lunch or Advisory cause Lunch is obvious and Advisory is fucking useless class imho (more on that later).

Geometry
Living Environment
Japanese 2
International Art
10 Global
10 English

I thought I would get dance or something. XD OH WELL at least I'll complete my art credits.

( My whole school day )

So yeah, first day went fairly well.